my sky are turning gray..
but..
i'm used with this situation...


the end

bla bla bla...

hmmm..
btol erk kalau kite baik..
orang amek kesempatan kat kite..
aku x diri aku nie baik atau x..
tpi aku dah pnat orang amek kesempatan kat aku..
tolong salah...x tolong pown salah..
then cakap aku dah byk brubah..
taik r...
sengal btol...
ingat aku ape..
kuli ko..??????
hahahahahaha..dok merepek jew..

mggu nie otak aku totally x stabil..
but,nasib bek adenye pantai..
dapat gak aku tnang2 kat sane..
nk jaga hati orang smpai hati sendiri x dew sape yg jage..
sengal btol..

dah dkat sbulan aku cuti..
ape yg aku dapat..???
BOSANNN..
hahaha..
aku nak nilai..
waaaaaaaaaaaaaa...
aku nak dorm aku balik..
huhuhu..

hmmm...
senang cite aku pnat..
huh...................................................................

semua ttg kite..

dlu waktu first day kat nilai..
satu bnda jew aku rase..
cepat larh abes sem..
aku x nak lagi tnggal kat nilai..
tpi bile tbe hari terakhir.
sedih aku nk tggalkan..
huhu..

pertama kali aku jejak dorm b1-1-11..
dah ade rase kekok..
bdak2 sume riuh n aku nie jnis yg x brapa pandai nk crik kawan..
tpi lpas 2 mggu,
bru aku tau diorang sume x makan orang..
diorang mmg baik gler r..
aku nie jnis anak manje jgk r..
x pernah duk asrama..
bile aku smpai nilai,
bru aku tau erti kawan, family n usaha..
cm sengala n aku nie..

KAWAN...
hurm..
term nie cm biase jew an..
tpi bsar maknannye bagi aku..
aku ade ramai kawan..
tpi ramai kawan aku ade time sng jew..
time ssah aku sorunk2 jew..
skrunk,aku rase ade yg snggup tman aku..
ade yg snggup tahan perangai aku..
ade yg snggup brsusah sbb aku..
n..
aku x ramai kwn perempuan sbb aku nie x biase r..
tpi dye nie wat aku selesa ngan dye.
perangai,gelak, cakap, sume selesa r bagi aku..
tpi blom smpat aku nk knal ngan dye agi..
nk hepi2 ngan dye..
sem dah abes..
dye dah balik..
hope dalam hati dye,ade r dye ingat aku..

FAMILY...
yup..
family..
bnda pling bermakna dalam idop aku..
mak, abah, mok. syakir n syuhada..
skrunk bile kat niali..
bru aku tau korunk syg aku..
baru aku tau yg family x kan tggalkan kite..
tpi kat sini aku dapat family baru..
adam,amilo, jube,bhai,aiman,amin,awe,amzar,alip,nabil,auzaie,afif,helmi,cek din,joe,acad,kd,ali n adik aku,,PADIL...
korunk family nilai aku pling aku syg..
jgn lupe aku erk...

aku harap sume yg ade dalam hati aku,..
sentiase hepi2..
kalo sdih kite kongsi erk..
aku nk sgt sume nie dapat aku rase lagi..
semua ttg kita..

ape kes..????

uiks..
dah lame x bkk mende nie..
kononnye bz stdy r..
hampeh jew..
stu habuk pown tarak..

mggu lpas an tahun baru cina..
so,familyku mngambil inisiatif yg cukup efisien mmbawa aku ke perak..
ipoh mali tarak sombong..
hari pertama..jeng jeng jeng..
mak ku mngembar gemburkan bahawa ade sebatang sungai kat blakang tmpat kitaorg lpak..
yaayyyy.
dapat mandi sungai..
ble aku smpai yg ade cumalah parit kcik jew..
kalo aku masuk konpem smpai paras tumit jew..
mmg lmas r aku..
hahaha..
kecewa gak r aku..
tapi rumah mak cik aku kat blakng dye an ade sungai..
memg hepi tahap cipan r..
tpi hati aku berderai mcm kaca pcah di lantai..
sungai kangsar rupenye..
mmg btol2 lmas aku..
hahaha..

hari kedua..kuang kuang kuang...
mak cik aku bwk kitaorg gi taiping..
cerita yg kluar dari mulut dye mmg best..
macam best r maksud aku..
ape yg aku dapat..?
terpacak depan the store..
hampeh btol..
kat pd pown ade..
aduyai..
pas2 aku pergi taman tasik taiping..
aku mmg plik dan heran..
asal aku mnjelajah bersama sepupu aku aku msti nampak pasangan sehidup semati kononnye,,
jalan lagi..pasangan merpati sejoli plak..
jalan lagi..pasangan pinang dibelah dua..
aku pown heran..
mngapa sume ini terjadi..
bru aku ingat..VALENTINE DAY..
jlas sgt aku x smbut smpai x tau..
macam hal aku tgk..
nie lagi stu..
x yah r smbut mnde 2..
watpe smbut mende 2..?
pas2 ade r OPS CUMBU r, OPS MAKSIAT r..
haha..
paham2 r an..
hampeh btol..
tpi yg best skit mee udang kat kuala sepetang..
terbaik wokkkk..

tpi bkn sume nie main point aku..
point sebenar aku ialah..........
aku x stdy langsung..
waaaaaa..
tension gile..
consti,general defence dan pelbagai lagi karenah law..
cm mane nie..
totally give up for the fight..btol kew ayat aku..???
3 hari lagi..
pas2 bye2 nilai,dak2 dorm, g13, g8 , n dye..
waaaaaaaaa..
sori x dapat ikot ko gi prak n x datang knduri ko.........

wei...
aku mntak maap sgt2..
aku tau salah aku kan..
kan3...
wei..
kalo ko bce..
aku harap ko maapkan..
2 mggu lagi..
aku harap ko terima maap aku..
aku tau aku x pandai pujuk orang..
but...
nie jew yg aku mampu..
x mampu aku nk bgi bunga btol2 atau main gitar kat bawah blok smbil nynyi lagu ntok ko..
soriiii sgt2....

no komen..like..

Broken
This fragile thing now
And I can't
I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't
I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up
(So broken up)
And I give up
(I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go
Scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only
My only one

Made my mistakes
Let you down
And I can't
I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't
I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up
(Breaking up)
I feel like giving up
(Like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go
Scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only
My only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note, for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go
Scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only
My only one

My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only
My only one

harta zaman bile ntah,,haha

wah..
semalam gpl 2 trok gak wat..
payah kort..n suntuk..
nasib bek aku wat..
kalo x..
hurmmm..
gpl2 dah abes..maknenye masa makin suntuk.
hahaha..

arab aku x pergi..
smbung gpl..
tpi waktu aku nk check beg aku..
wow..
aku jumpe harta yg dah lame aku peram..
gmbr dye yg dh lame aku perap, aku tgk gak tdi..
tersimpan elok lagi..
sme mcm knangan kita yg bernilai setahun..
then...
dye pergi gak an dri idup aku..
x sangka aku..
haisshhh..

cmpur baur feeling aku..
wawawa..
tpi hdup kne dteruskan..
die dgn hidup dye..
aku ngan hidup aku yg agak hopeless nie..
hahaha..
x pew
blk plkn mebi leyh jump an..
mesti dah ade perubahan..
apepown..
hdupkan kenangan si dia..

your guardian angel

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm strong
I have figured out
How this world turns cold
and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find
deep inside me
I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
to fade

I remember what you wore on our first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
‘Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I’m left with nothing

So maybe it’s true, that I can’t live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there’s so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you’ve already got me coming undone
And I’m thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
‘Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything’s okay
And finally now, believing

And maybe it’s true, that I can’t live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
But there’s so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you’ve already got me coming undone
And I’m thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on our first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it’s true, that I can’t live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there’s so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And you’ve already got me coming undone
And I’m thinking

Oooh I can’t live without you
‘Cause baby two is better than one
There’s so much time, to figure out the best in my life
And I’ve figured out with all that’s said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one.

dissolve..

uiks..~
aku rase arie nie aku nk lari satu malaysia boleh x..
x termasuk sabah srawak r..
payah 2..
mngapa aku cuba mngambil tindakan drastik ini..???
gila, mereng, bodoh, sengal atau pura-pura bijak..??
sebenarnya, ade kisah di sebaliknya..


ceritanya befini..
arienie aku rase plik..
cm x dew mood r..
mebi sbb aku x bape sihat kort..
pkul 8.07..
jeng3..
aku dapat msg si die..
sbb die kate aku wat muka syiling..
hmpeh tol..
aku pown gi r top up..
nk balas r..
then, dye xx blas mcg aku..
tanpa segan silu, pada pkul 10.40 aku pown kol dye..

part nie part gelabah r..
hahahahaha..
aku x tau tindakan aku nie dianggap ape bagi dye..
a)bodoh
b)mereng
c)ngok ngek
d)ala ala macho..
pilih tau..
hahahhaha..
aku pown rungkaikan semuanye..
x dew tipu2..
first yang aku dgr...
"ko x serik-serik lagi kew????"
yup..
mmg aku x serik..
nape..
sebb hati aku x pernah serik..
then dye mnangis..
tindakan aku kejam kort..??
hahahha..
then..
dye ngaku..
ape yg dye cakap..
dye cakap yg........(biarlah aku sorunk yang tau)
waktu tu larh aku rase nak lari satu malaysia..
haha..
tapi an..........
aku sedar..
yg terbaik pasti mng..
n..
aku bukan terbaik..
tpi aku nk jadi yang terbaik..
so..
the conclusion is..
dissolve.........

totally change

dengarkan,
petang itu jadi saksiku,
saat aku sedar adanya kamu,
entah kenapa satu perasaan lama,
yang sudah lama ku kunci,
terbuka dgn sendiri,

ingatkah,
pameran itu,
aku mula dekatimu,
niat hanya jadikan teman,
hanya itu yang ku inginkan,

ingatkah kau waktu itu,
aku mula cerita padamu,
saat aku larut dalam cintaku,
saat ku pndam rasaku,

ingatkah kau waktu itu,
pesanan ringkas untukmu,
pnuh dgn isi hatiku,
walau ku sedar tntg dirimu,
ada insan memilikimu,

ku katakan dengan indah,
pada diriku yang semakin lemah,
makin cuba ku jauhkan darimu,
makin dekat perasaan itu datang padaku,
aku sedar dirimu mnyintai dia,
knapa masih aku tegar percayakan cinta,
salahkah aku cuba memilikimu,
salahkah aku ingin di cintaimu,

knapa ini semua berlaku padaku,
adakah ini makna cinta padaku,
aku harap pluang muncul di dpanku,
akan ku bahagiakan dirimu,
itu janjiku padamu,
andai kau milikku,
akan ku coretkan di potret hidupku,
kau yang satu,
kau ku cintai selalu..